Typed this in my other blog...nvm i've decided to make this post public. What's the point of keeping a blog for public viewing and another blog for secret stuff??? Argghh...i hate that...wish i could return to the time when i first started my blog in J1. Then, i literally put my heart on my blog....(which led to my classmates knowing that i *ahem* weibin<--- shall not elaborate what *ahem* means)
Shit...i haven't told anyone abt this and it's making me sick - literally. The fact is, i am attracted to Jason in my committee. And i'm feeling nauseous. There, i've said it. I just hope my nausea passes..
I dun want to put this in my public blog cos many pple read it, including my sis and jan, who know who jason is (or else they can guess)...dunno why i'm ashamed of what i feel...arrghhh
at least he's someone i am interested in knowing as a person...as opposed to other crushes i've had which were based on physical attraction. I'm attratced to jason cos he's funny and seems pretty different. he's studying mechanical engineering in NUS so he has to be quite smart.He's got longish hair which he tied back in a half-ponytail today. (a bit like ryuichi!) His eyes are pretty big and his nose is sharp (hooked in fact) but he's a bag of bones...haiz i dunno whether i wan him for a boyfriend or a brother....well, he seems interesting (read: funny) and adventurous (he's going backpacking in India after his exams).. but this kind of guy...probably doesn't want a relationship rite, with their love for freedom and all....
What am i talking about.
Nevermind. In a few weeks time I'll probably laugh at myself for having ever written this post...
Damn i still feel nauseous..is it from hunger??
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i got the confirmation letter from NTU yesterday. And i've been accepted to SADM!
I know i should be jumping up and down and bouncing off the walls but i'm not. I'm just very relieved that i got thru. i tink i might have been kinda arrogant/conceited today during my meeting with fellow JYE-ers.
Like, i dunno why but i'm reluctant to say that i'm working in mediacorp. And when my sis told my committee members, i felt this pride in being associated with Mediacorp. When i'm juz the da3 za2 person. And i feel kinda proud for getting into SADM too cos really, it's pretty tough to get in, what with the video & photos & essay that have to be submitted and the faculty test that at least 150 pple took...and not to mention the 1000 over poly and mature applicants.
Jibun ga kirai da. (i hate myself) Like, wake up!!! Hello! U're not the King of the World juz cos u got into SADM!
Sekali in August i see like, 500 pple in my fac. Great.
Shit...i haven't told anyone abt this and it's making me sick - literally. The fact is, i am attracted to Jason in my committee. And i'm feeling nauseous. There, i've said it. I just hope my nausea passes..
I dun want to put this in my public blog cos many pple read it, including my sis and jan, who know who jason is (or else they can guess)...dunno why i'm ashamed of what i feel...arrghhh
at least he's someone i am interested in knowing as a person...as opposed to other crushes i've had which were based on physical attraction. I'm attratced to jason cos he's funny and seems pretty different. he's studying mechanical engineering in NUS so he has to be quite smart.He's got longish hair which he tied back in a half-ponytail today. (a bit like ryuichi!) His eyes are pretty big and his nose is sharp (hooked in fact) but he's a bag of bones...haiz i dunno whether i wan him for a boyfriend or a brother....well, he seems interesting (read: funny) and adventurous (he's going backpacking in India after his exams).. but this kind of guy...probably doesn't want a relationship rite, with their love for freedom and all....
What am i talking about.
Nevermind. In a few weeks time I'll probably laugh at myself for having ever written this post...
Damn i still feel nauseous..is it from hunger??
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i got the confirmation letter from NTU yesterday. And i've been accepted to SADM!
I know i should be jumping up and down and bouncing off the walls but i'm not. I'm just very relieved that i got thru. i tink i might have been kinda arrogant/conceited today during my meeting with fellow JYE-ers.
Like, i dunno why but i'm reluctant to say that i'm working in mediacorp. And when my sis told my committee members, i felt this pride in being associated with Mediacorp. When i'm juz the da3 za2 person. And i feel kinda proud for getting into SADM too cos really, it's pretty tough to get in, what with the video & photos & essay that have to be submitted and the faculty test that at least 150 pple took...and not to mention the 1000 over poly and mature applicants.
Jibun ga kirai da. (i hate myself) Like, wake up!!! Hello! U're not the King of the World juz cos u got into SADM!
Sekali in August i see like, 500 pple in my fac. Great.
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