Sunday, February 11, 2007

It's hard to be 21

My friends are facing identity crises (like i am), wondering whether this uni thing is the right path, and getting hurt by stranger's comments about them just by being themselves, etc. They are sad but i don't know how to cheer them up w/o sounding preachy. Only they themselves can snap themselves out of it, either by changing their mentality or doing sth to change themselves. Of course having pple listen to your troubles can sometimes help too. And why not? After all, we're (21-yr-olds) all are in this state of uncertainty together.

I had a talk w/ my sis recently..and i think that everyone has issues. Sad, but true. a lot of my peers are sad kids operating under veneer of normalcy. I've learnt that i can't change the world. But i don't wish my friends and family to suffer either.

I've changed rapidly since 2005. I've worked for 6 months, i've gone to tokyo, to homestay. I've been exposed to art. I've gone through an identity crisis. I've scrapped through the horriblest term ever. I've gone on a date. I've straightened things out with my sister. I've started exercising. i've lost some weight. Now all that's left is buying some new clothes and chatting up guys. haha no lah, just kidding!! I'm eager to learn baking, belly dance, piano, guitar, etc. I want to learn how to drive and ride a motorbike too. But no money!!!!

Life is like a movie. You won't know whether a choice is right or wrong until you relate it to the events b4 and after that choice. So sometimes there's no point asking whether what you're doing is right when you've already chosen a certain path. anyway, to be human is to live your life to the best of your talents and flaws. So why get so hung up abt the 'right' path? Just go on and see where the path leads you. I think regret makes you more human.

BGR
On the BGR front....i've gotten over my uni crushes except for the very first one, called wh. Dunno why....maybe cos he's the first one i crush and instincts are most accurate? i think he knows i crush him. Cos he acts weird in front of me. Like, unnatural. Oh well. He's got a girlfriend.

I crush this guy in my class. A bit lah. I've interacted with him before so i know he's just a regular guy. That kind of diminishes my feelings for him but heck, it's fun to have eye candy in school.