If i knew a way to send the med to ur fren, i would gladly help you. To see u smile. To take ur troubles away. To prove to u that nothing is impossible. But i know not of such a way. For that, pls forgive me. For being me.

Read my fren's blogs. Everyone is either up to their neck with work or depressed or depressed about their work. Oh my God. I this wat the future has in store for us? Reality? I'm sorry but i don't want to face it. I want to remain a kid forever.

Jan: Ur sch work seems pretty screwed up.....so busy...ganbatte! dun give up on ur choice!

MC: i haven't heard from u for so long. Reading ur blog seemed to be the only way i see any of u..I wanna see u soon!

Stella: Sorry for taking u for granted...I really wanna change, i really do.

I slept 17 hrs today. Did nothing. Watched The Mask of Zorro on AXN. I think it was much better than its sequel, The legend of Zorro. Much much better. The different emotions were there...and it was a much more elegant piece than its sequel, which was husband-and-wife quarrel dragged on for too long.

I watched 2 episodes of Overtime. I miss that show! It's so funny! And i love the cinematography! Watching it for thr XXXth time...i notice more noteworthy lines and camera angles now..

"Flames that don't die even in pouring rain...i want them."

Someone said i was cute. When it was put across to me thru a fren, it didn't register in my head cos i was doing my work and i was annoyed for being interrupted. But now, come to think of it, i shud be delighted, which i am. Thank u, fren of a fren.

I don't like akai shatsu anymore. I know this has dragged on for so long. Do i like him or not? Frankly i had the urge to tell him quite a few times but each time i'd swallow the words back down. Arrghh. I'll tell him after the 3D project is over.

Pics from my sch's Halloween Party on fri




Me in my corpse makeup thanks to my classmate, Alecia, who's a professional face-painter!


Me with Willy Wonka!
No lah...juz someone dressed as him. Wow his costume is great!


I'll post more pics soon!

Shit. Haven't done any homework the whole weekend. I'm screwed for next week. (As usual)

Arrrghhh. I hate rushing work on the eve of the deadline. Makes me feel like a slob.

Check out the new song on my blog! Gackt's Love Letter!

Love Letter
by Gackt

Yasashii egao de boku ni hohoemu kimi ga ima mo
kawarazu ni soba ni iru
Me wo tojireba hora ikutsumono
Kisetsu ga Bokura wo sotto tsutsumi konde yuku yo

Nagai tabiji no hate ni nani ga aru no ka
Dare mo wakaranai keredo
Fuan na yoru wa mou nido to otozure nai kara

Eien wo aruite yukeru
Kore kara mo zutto futari de
Kono mune ni tsuyoku dakishimeta
Omoi wa kawaranai tatta hitotsu dake no“Aishiteru"

Soyo kaze ni nabiku chiisana hana no you na
Kimi ni hajimete deatta hi wa tooku
Mada osana sugite kizutsuke au hibi mo atta keredo
Ima dewa warai aeru omoide

Chikai au yakusoku wo wasurenai de
Dare yori mo taisetsu dakara
Egaita yume wo sukoshizutsu kanaete yukou yo

Eien wo aruite yukeru
Kore kara mo zutto futari de
Kono mune ni tsuyoku dakishimeta
Omoi wa kawaranai tatta hitotsu dake no“Aishiteru"

Eien wo aruite yukeru
Kore kara mo zutto futari de
Kono mune ni tsuyoku dakishimeta
Omoi wa kawaranai tatta hitotsu dake no“Aishiteru"

"Aishiteru" ....

Life's good. Busy, but good.

I had been slacking so much during the last weekend, work sounded good to me. Tink a break did me good. Now I'm rested and eager to work.

I don't like akai shatsu anymore.

Guess what? i'm in his project grp for 3D. It's quite strange for me...cos the other person in our grp is the vietnamese girl in the class and i'm not really close to her...plus there's the tension (albeit one-sided) btwn me and akai shatsu. Arrrghhh our grp dynamics like very weird. Like, i can't relax in front of them. Which is quite damaging for the project at hand cos u've gotta be comfortable enough with each other toi share ur ideas and communicate effectively. Grr... gotta loosen up...

Speaking of loosening up.. the right side of my hip aches. Must have slept in an unfavourable position or sth.

One last thing:

I want sex.

I'm considering giving my class my blog address....but i'm concerned that they'll discover things that i'd rather they not know...like how the 03S13 girls (hui ling!) did so....

Some pics to share...
Delicious celebration with 03S13 gals at Cafe Cartel
The food was amazing *foams at the mouth at the tot of the delectable food* (ok, i guess drooling would be graphic enough huh)










おいしいdinner with Samantha at Hoshigaoka Restaurant + Marche
Shit the food was so damn good they got me cursing the NTU canteen!!





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Gosh...feel so overwhelmed by work suddenly...have work to do but i just dun feel like doing it. Arrrgh. Now that i'm in this course, i'm starting to long for a structured life again. Sitting behind a desk dealing with things i work best with - words on paper. I dream of being a translator at a publishing house. Japanese, French, Thai - I wan to master them all.

Took this frm shuang han's blog...

1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Add something that is true about you.

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01. I miss somebody right now.
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I own lots of books (loads of christopher pike books!)
05. I am a walking disaster in the kitchen
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I've tried marijuana
09. I've watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy (but ususally i dun have the courage to say the truth)
13. I love ice cream
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse sometimes
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a hobby
18. I've been told I have a nice smile
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I'm partially smart
21. I've never broken someone's bones
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I'm paranoid at times
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
26. I need money right now
27. I love sushi.
28. I talk really, really fast (actually only in front of my crush..i talk very slow in front my teacher though)
29. I have fresh breath in the morning *ahem*
30. I have semi-long hair
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
34. I am sick right now
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look sometimes
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to cornrow
41. I am usually pessimistic (i act cheerful but i'm quite pessimistic inside...damn i need to be rescued by my prince charming)
42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is pretty
45. Slept with a Suitemate
46. I have a hidden talent (i'd like to believe it's true...but all u pple already know how lame i am so...it's hard to keep my lameness a secret i guess...check out my crutches!)
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I have a lot of friends
49. I am currently single
50. I have pecked someone of the same sex
51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
53. I love to shop
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57. I'm obsessed with my blog
58. I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
59. I'm a pretty good dancer
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in God
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama
67. I have never been in a real relationship before
68. I've rejected someone before
69. I currently have a crush/like someone.
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I've called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie
80. I am shy around the opposite sex
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past
85. I own the "South Park" movie
86. I have avoided assignments at work to be on Xanga or Livejournal
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
88. I enjoy some country music
89. I would die for my best friends
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
93. I always learn things the hard way.
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all9
5. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend's ex
99. I like surveys
100. I am happy at this moment
101. I'm obsessed with guys
102. I am bi
103. Democrat
104. Conservative Republican
105. I am punk rockish
106. I am preppy
107. I go for older guys/girls, not younger
108. I study for tests most of the time
109. I tie my shoelaces differently to anyone I've ever met
110. I can work on a car
111. I love my job
112. I am comfortable with who I am right now
113. I have more than just my ears pierced.
114. I walk barefoot wherever I can.
115. I have jumped off a bridge.
116. I love sea turtles.
117. I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
118. I believe in prophetic dreams.
119. I plan on achieving a major goal/dream
120. I am proficient on a musical instrument.
121. I worked at a McDonald's restaurant.
122. I hate office jobs
123. I love sci-fi movies
124. I've never been in love
125. I think water rules
126. I go to college out of state
127. I am adopted
128. I like sassage
129. I am a pyro
130. I love the Red Sox
131. I have thrown up from crying too much
132. I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved
133. I love kisses
134. I fall for the worst people freakin bastards...
135. I am a big procastinator
136. I still miss an ex
137. I can use chopsticks.
138. I am/have been obsessed with a certain actor(s)/actress(es)
139. I would put oral braces if it's painless
140. I've never cheated on a significant other before.
141. I'd rather have a small but intimate social circle instead of a large network of friends
142. I have tried to come up with a regular exercise regime for myself at least three times and failed miserably.
143. I love chocolate.

Yay i bought Fight Club on sat!!!!! And Minority Report (for $7.95) and Ghost. Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can't wait to watch them!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Met up with Samantha. Really envy her. Her concert experience makes me wanna go for Gackt's concert too.

I feel that our relationship is quite strange now...we have grown so different. (actually our frenship was not very deep to start with. Like, i haven't had the chance to have heart-to-heart talks with her yet.) As much as i wan to keep our bond, i feel that i have really lost touch with her for very long...(So must meet up more often and find out more abt her life now!)

Happy belated birthday Ming Yong!!! Sorry for (still) delaying ur bdae celebration. Hope u had a great birthday!

Watched Sliding Doors for lit. I tink it's an ok film. Everyone acted well except Gwyneth Paltrow. Dun ask me why i juz dun like her. And it doesn't help that she has a fake English accent in this show.

I like James (played by Jack Hannah). He's funny, witty, sweet and caring. His Scottish accent was so cute!! *eyes shining with adoration*



He's the kind of guy who will make his gf laugh the whole day long. こんなの男がほしい!!!!!!! If i met someone like that in real-life i tink i'll really fall for him. And si3 chan2 bu4 fang4. Even if he's a conman i tink i will willingly get tricked lor. I'm a sucker for witty guys/guys who speak well. Too bad right now i dun see anyone with this quality so...I'm declaring myself as single and loving it!

(oh no i juz checked up in Jack Hannah and he's 43, married witha pair of 1-yr-old twins, a boy & a girl. And *surprise!* he played Rachel Weiss' brother in 'The Mummy'! I didn't know that! I totally couldn't tell!)

I dun like anyone now. Yes, not even 赤いシャツ. I went to his room today and.............i didn't feel anything. Wait, i did feel sth. I felt awkward. Watever. He's not worth it.

I tink i will be myself in front of my classmates lah. I tink it's tough to keep trying to fit in. As much as i wish they'd be close to me, i tink i shud juz relax and be myself. Let nature take its course.

The teacher said this movie was a romantic comedy. I was like, are you sure??!!! The comedic parts like not very strong leh. And i feel that the way the film was shot made it serious instead of funny. Admittedly, it could be really funny cos the premise of 'wat if' has an amazing amt of possibilities (Korean screwball comedies like "Please Teach me English" come to mind). So i find it strange that the director classified this as a romantic comedy. Fine maybe it is funny to American adults but no, not to this Singaporean-but-jap-crazed-has-watched-iron-ladies-and-please-teach-me-english-and-harold-and-kumar teenager.

I watched 2 great movies this weekend: We don't live here anymore and Princess Mononoke.

Oh my god. I can't stop raving abt Princess Mononoke. I watched WDLHA first and i tot it was really good. It had a lot of talking and i loved it for being so rhetorical. Princess Mononoke was...WOW. The people move very realistically...and it's animation! *kowtows to Miyazaki* I like this more than i like Sen to chihiro no kamikakushi (Spirited Away) and Hauru no ugokishiro (Howl's Moving Castle). This film was really nice! Everyone, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do yourself a favour and check these 2 films out!

We Don't Live Here Anymore
This film is abt 2 couples, Jack & Terri, Hank and Edith. Hank is a writer and he's so obssessed with his work that he neglected his wife. So his wife, Edith, ends up having an affair with his best fren, Jack, who is also the husband of her best friend, Terri. In the end, Jack loves Edith and nearly divorced Terri (who loved him all the way frm start to finish)

Terri: Jack, if you screwed things up - blah, blah can't remember - and lost everyhting, i'd love you. I love you!
Jack: I love Edith.
Terri: What?! No... (she went to hug Jack)
Jack: Don't do this (he pushed her to the floor) Just take it, ok. Take it, Jesus Christ.

But he stayed on with his wife because...i tink he feels that he owes it to her cos she loves him so much. Like, when they were going to divorce she still accomodated to his wishes. She barely put up a fight. ("If it's the kids, you can see them anythime you want, i won't fight for it." "No, it's not the kids...") It's like, she almost encourages him to go ahead with the path he chose, which was to be with Edith.

Also, at the end of the film, we realise that Hank knew abt the affair all along. But he doesn't care. He doesn't love Edith anyway. He just loves his writing. And pretty women.

Hank: "It's easier to live with a woman who thinks that she is loved."
Wat the shit! I wanted to punch him!

At the end when Edith decides to leave Hank..
Hank: "Why? Why do you leave now?"
Edith: "Because i can."

I liked Mark Ruffalo's character at first. But later i liked Terri and i hated him cos he didn't love her and she has been true to him and had loved him since day one.

Princess Mononoke

This animation captured me right from the start. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH i love Ashitaka!! He's so brave (which is everything i'm not)!!!

The story is abt a prince, Ashitaka, who went in search of the Deer God to lift a curse that was inflicted on him when he killed a demon boar. Along the way, he meets a girl, San, who was brought up by the wolves. The forest she lived in was under the threat of destruction by the humans who mined iron from the land. War btwn nature & humans was imminent....

I wasn't that concerned with the environment theme....i was more caught up with the romance bits..heh heh. The music is good as well. (Ok, i'm really obssessed with the music!) And the textures in the animation were great!

Favourite moments///

San: Why did you stop me?
Ashitaka: Cos i didn't want you to die. Wakatteiru. Saishu ni atta toki kara. I knew that from the moment i saw you.
San: I'll cut your throat so you can't say anymore nonsense!

Ashitaka: Sugata wa utsukushii.. You look beautiful..

When Ashitaka hugged San.

Ashitaka: Tsumanakatta. I'm sorry. I tried to stop it (the destruction of the forest).
When they woke up after the forest was reborn. They woke up in each other's arms..So sweet~~~~~
Kodama! Kawaii!!!!!