Tonight's Picks of Pics:

One of Dong Bang Shin Ki's early shots. Clockwise from top left: Micky, Hero, Max, U-Know, Xiah. Hero (the long-haired guy in the middle) has the gentlest voice i've ever heard. It's very rou2. There's power in it but it's so very gentle (if a bit effeminate).

My no 2 guy at the moment....Yunho or U-Know. He's got a hot bod and he can really dance! (Actually all of DBSK are great dancers)

About him
Name: Yunho
Birthday: 6 Feb 1986
Blood type: A
Height: 184cm
Weight: 66 kg


The effect with the bubbles is quite cool...dreamy...fantasy-like....

Yay i just heard DBSK's song called 'One'. Like Ming Choo told me, it's really very nice! haha...very very boyband-ish in it's pian4 nu3 hai2 zi3-ness. Hmmmm. If anyone of u understand what i juz typed you must be either a) my close friend or b) one of those pple willing to part with their parents' hard-earned money to be entertained by honey-coated songs crooned by girlish-looking adolescent guys - like me.

Nowadays i realise that i have less and less patience when i comes to reading stuff. I'll just scan through books and newspapers and websites when in the past i would read every line dutifully. Hmmmm...better start reading carefully now...dun wanna miss out any impt info..

"When you're young you want to change the world. When you're older you just want to understand it.”

Read this quote from www.waiterrant.net. Haizz.....i think it's true, that's why i've included it here.

Ooh i got tagged by Shuang Han. This game works like this: you write 5 things about yourself and tag 5 pple whom you want to know 5 things about.

1) My eyesight is now slightly over 1100 degrees for each eye. I'm quite concerned about my eyes. I hope i don't go blind. I'm really scared. Some nights before i sleep, i wonder if it will be the last time i'll be able to see this world.

2) I want to fall in love. One day. I mean, I'm hoping and all but i think right now i'm not ready to go into a relationship. I'm not...selfless enough for one thing. I value my alone time a lot. And i don't see myself being capable of liking someone so much that i want to care for the person's every need and want. And it's really hard for me to open to anyone. I'm not even honest to myself, what more another person...

3) I love learning languages!! Sugoku omoshiroi desu!!! (Very interesting!!) I'm taking up French in sch next year (I hope. STARS zheng1 qi4 yi1 dian3!) and i'm trying to learn Korean online right now. Haha!!

4) I tend to bottle up my feelings and push them to the back of my mind until i explode. I'm afraid to face myself. Don't learn from me. It's not healthy.

5) When i was young, i used to have big dreams of becoming a famous singer...and i would appear on Music Station (a live music programme in Japan). I would perform alongside KinKi Kids (my fave band back then). I would get interviewed by reporters...everyone wants to hear what i wanna say etc..

Then i wanted to make movies. I dreamt of directing my own show and having Domoto Tsuyoshi (my fave artiste back then) acting in it. Then i wanted to win the Best Director Oscar.

But I went to work at Mediacorp and it made me wary of showbiz. It's not as 'fun' as i tot it was. It's pretty tedious. And the director has to be very alert and focused. He's got this big responsibility resting on his shoulders.

I got scared of showbiz; I was disillusioned. Am i afraid of hard work? I guess i am. That and the responsibility that the director has. Will i be able to cope with that? Can I? Me? The me that i know? No way.

I think this is cause of my negativity towards showbiz nowadays. This and my mediocre showing in my course. Grrr.

Why can't i just concentrate on what i want and just go ahead with it?

Now i Taggg

-My sis
-Ming choo
-Jan
-Samantha
-Hui Ling

Some notes to myself:

Be brave. Don't consider so much. Just do what your heart tells you to. I want to live each day like my last. Stand my ground. Live the life i love. Love life. Be the person you want to be. Stop procrastinating and finish the tasks for that day on that day. Be happy. Articulate your feelings.

Yay! Now i like Xiah from DBSK. They're quite a good boyband. They dance really well all of them can sing/rap. And it doesn't hurt that (quoting Stella) they are the cutest guys to come out of Korea. And someone pls remind me that they are only my age. Hmmm.


Dong Bang Shin ki


A brooding Xiah

Xiah Fact File

Name: Kim Junsu
Birthday: 1 January 1987
Height: 180cm
Weight: 63kg
Blood Type: B


A cute picture of Xiah!

Music at the mo': selected songs by Exile and DBSK (i'm so in the romantic-rnb-ballads mood)
I shall devote 2006 to finding myself. Making myself a better person. Getting my act together. Strip myself bare except for the essentials.

Enjoying myself listening to DBSK's romantic ballads like "Tonight" and "Always there..." (oh my the title is "Yagsoghedon Guteye" in Korean. No wonder i couldn't find the lyrics at first. Btw who can pronounce that anyway?! Korean is so hard.) Their "Rising Sun" and "Somebody to love" are rather catchy too. Now i like Xiah voice best.

After trying to decipher their song lyrics, i feel like learning Korean! So interesting! But pronounciation is a killer.

Tonight
by DBSK

[u-know] nah eui soneul jabahyo nahreul gadeug ahngosuh gaseum gipee gidaeuh dool eui cheh ohnee seumyuh deulgeh
[Max] chameul soogah ubjyo geudae jageun ddulrimeh nan youngwuhnhee geudaereul ibgo
oh baby dashin butgo shipuh hajee ahnneun dahneun gul algetjyo.
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Take my hand, hold me tight, and take a rest in my heart so that you might feel the heat simmering in.
I can't take it. Your small shaking makes me want to put you on and never take you off.

[ALL] Stolen my soul Stolen my heart nae ahneh geudaegah nuhmoonah numchyuh soomeul swil soojocha ubneungulyo naerin bireul mateun aheechuhrum daejee wee eh bboorin sahrang chuhrum....Tonight
{[Xiah] eereun ahchim haesal eui ddah ddeuhameejyo jamdeun geudae eui poom ahnehsuh...Oh yeah...}
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Stolen my soul Stolen my heart, I'm filled with you so much that I can't breathe. Like a small child caught in the rain. Like the love sprinkled on the earth.. like tonight..
{Your embrace is warm like the early morning sunlight.}

[Micky] Now I know why those people are saying 'Love is blind' I believe my heart belongs to you. I love you more than...I do...

[Xiah] nae gahseum ahnehsuh geudaen mahchee boolduhng uhreechurum hayageh bunjyuh gahgo itjyo modoo tae wuhbuhryuyo
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Like a fireball you're spreading a fire in my heart.

[Micky] I love you when I saw you, when I touch you, when I feel you... when I fall in love ggeutee ubneun yuhljung geudael gahjeengul
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I love you When I saw you, when I touch you, when I feel you When I fall in love. You've got an endless passion.

[ALL] Stolen my soul Stolen my heart nae ahneh geudaegah nuhmoonah numchyuh soomeul swil soojocha ubneungulyo naerin bireul mateun aheechuhrum daejee wee eh bboorin sahrang chuhrum....Tonight
{[Hero] Salah soom swineun naegah neukkyuhjeeneun gul nae mom ahneh choongmanhan geudae...Oh yeah...}
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Stolen my soul Stolen my heart, I'm filled with you so much that I can't breathe. Like a small child caught in the rain. Like the love sprinkled on the earth.. like tonight..
I can feel you living and breathing inside of me to the fullest.

[Xiah] nuhmoonah gipeun ee gamjung dojuhhee gamdanghal jashinee ubsuhyo nae maeumsokeh geudaegah joon sarangee jumjum nareul tamkyuhgago itneun gul
[Hero] I know, our love is miracle...geudaen nae ahneh gotongeul nahgo ahpeumdeuleun jumjum, hwanheereul mandeuljyo My love can be...
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[Xiah] I don't have the courage to face these deep feelings. The love that you've given me is slowly swallowing me.
[Hero]I know, our love is a miracle... You ease the pain in me and slowly the pain becomes my delight.. My love can be...

[Max scream, then Hero]

[ALL] Stolen my soul Stolen my heart nae ahneh geudaegah nuhmoonah numchyuh soomeul swil soojocha ubneungulyo naerin bireul mateun aheechuhrum daejee wee eh bboorin sahrang chuhrum....Tonight
{[Hero] eereun achim haesaleun naegeh ohneungul jamdeun geudae eui poom anesuh...Oh yeah...My love}
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Stolen my soul Stolen my heart, I'm filled with you so much that I can't breathe. Like a small child caught in the rain. Like the love sprinkled on the ground.. like tonight..
{Your embrace is warm like the early morning sunlight.}

[ALL] Stolen my soul Stolen my heart nae ahneh geudaegah nuhmoonah numchyuh soomeul swil soojocha ubneungulyo naerin bireul mateun aheechuhrum daejee wee eh bboorin sahrang chuhrum....Tonight
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Stolen my soul Stolen my heart, You're filled in me so much. I can't breathe. Like a small child caught in the rain. Like the love sprinkled on the ground.. like tonight..

Damn i can't find the pic i took wif edmund chen in my comp. Shit....i'm so sad.... Grrr....

Well...the good part of today was that i got to meet Shuangz and Weiz. Talked abt stuff...and plus we watched pride and prejudice...which was better than i expected it to be. And Shuang han juz told me that the actor who played Mr Darcy was this shuai actor from the movie "In my father's den"!!!! Wow!!!!

Everyone call me Mrs Darcy pls. haha.

Music at the mo': Toilet-Paper Man by Nakai Masahiro(i tink) frm SMAP

Finished watching 'Anego'. I tot the ending was appropriate, although it was kinda anti-climax. That's the ending that is closest to reality. As the lead character said, "Happiness is just besiode you, just that you fail to notice it." Doing all the things you're supposed to do that day can give you happiness. I agree. Since i want to work on my artistic skills...i shall focus on them next sem.

Folks check out the new song on my blog! It fits my upbeat mood! It's called 'Summer Gate' and it's from SMAP's MIJ album. Thanks to Samantha for lending me the cd!

Watched the last amazing race just now. I shed tears when the winning team reached the Amazing race mat. I was so touched for them! The 4 siblings overcame all odds and finally won. My gosh...if i were in their place i'll cry like shit lor. All their hard work and perserverance have paid off.

勝ちの感じがほしい!!!! (i want the feeling of triumph!!)

Cosplay on Friday, 16 Dec 2005

Actually i wasn't too excited abt cosplaying when the idea was first brought up by stella. But i went ahead since my sis got excited too...And basically cos i was an obliging person?!!! Anyways, i was growing out of my jap visual rock phase at the turn of the month (well, last month) and i didn't like any j-rock artiste or any anime.

But i was glad with the way my hair turned out. After this experience, NO ONE MENTION THE COLOUR BLACK TO ME!!!!!! I'm totally afraid/sick of that colour right now!

The whole experience of cosplaying was very strange...lots of pple stared at us in orchard. Yeah, i was looking for attention but now that i've gotten it...i don't really want it. I didn't dare to look at anyone in the eye! eally no confidence at all, in spite (or is it because) of how dressed up i am. I'm just glad waking up to be myself again today. Wear shitty clothes and slippers and 'gay-leh' (walk ard) in my orange specs. Haha.

Meanwhile pls enjoy my 自恋 photos!!! hahaha

After gazillion years in front of the mirror & a ton of makeup...









Out of my house at last










Acting cute





Kawaisou (ke lian) ~"被抛弃的小娃娃"的感觉~

Kakkoii~ (cool)

Say hi to our one and only 工作人员 - Ming Choo! (who's also our manager ;P)

On the way home
Waiting for bus..or 'booz' as my Tokyo tour guide would have said..."Where's the booz, where's the booz, where's the booz?"

On the bus! Sitting somemore! No wonder so happy.

Rubbishy shot #1

Rubbishy shot#2

I love ze pout! (harhar) I've always admired pple's (specifically jap pretty boys') pouts....Yamapi and Akanishi jin are my 师傅ok!

Home at last!! (at long last! and about time too....my feet were killin meeeeee)

Otsukaresama deshita! (辛苦了!)

Where are my exam results??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today i found the drive to work hard for next sem. I feel that this sem i didn't put in my best effort. Every time slack while my classmates go library to check out reference stuff..What am i doing with my time? I'm here to study rite!!!!!

Jan: I'm sure u dun miss us at all...Japan is so exciting!!!! Better bring souvenirs back or else!!! (haha)

Ha now i like this jr frm Five. Called Uesato Ryota. (i tink i muz be too bored at home) Oh and i found that maruyama hiroshi guy in the Dec 2002 issue of wink up. It was his first appearance in that mag i tink cos he was introduced with 4 other juniors as fresh juniors. He's the same age as us. Yappari it's good to buy wink up......even if u dun the the idols u liked anymore...u can still use the mag as reference to search for info new faces. Haha.

After reading stella's latest entry..my mood turned heavy. I agree with her...what am i doing..fussing over my cosplay costume and hair & slacking around my house everyday..while someone's dying or died. I dunno...it makes my life all the more stagnant and the quality of it lousy. Which brings me to 'Anego', a jap drama i watched this afternoon. In it, the lead character is a single 32-yr-old woman who muses on how she is perceived by being a single woman at her age.

Seriously, everyone (woman) is looking for love. But how often does it come in the right time (when u're at ur marriagable age) and place (he's unmarried)? Or since life never works out the way want it to then...why not just be someone's wife and be done with it. Some pple would say they fear solitude (singlehood) more than freedom and juz get married with an ok guy when time's up (when they reach their 30s). Naive idiots like me would be like, "But that's like living a lie!"

I suppose i got scared when i watched that show. I dun want to be like the main character! You slog after u come out frm sch and at the end of the day, u're 30, ur youth is gone, ur life is empty, men treat u like a fossil, ur parents pressure u into marriage, etc Kanashii ne. It's like, 'What the fuck have i been doing with my life?"

One more thing is. I can't imagine living alone like these young japanese. I'll go crazy. Wake up, go work, go home, sleep, wake up, go work, go home, sleep, etc. Everyday u only meet the pple in ur workplace. My gosh. I'll go mad. (Maybe that's why i tot i liked wei hao when i stayed in hostel. hmm.)

Some pictures of Uesato Ryota..

Wah how come so dramatic?!


What a cute student (i mean Ryota in the black blazer)!


Most recent pic of Ryota i can find. (He's the one in the centre in the back row) Him with his bandmates in Five. He plays the bass guitar. Actually the guy on the right quite cute oso.. haha!!

Some info...
Name: Uesato Ryota 上里亮太
D.O.B.: 22 October 1983
Height: 178cm
Weight: 59kg


Hara Tomohiro. Some long-forgotten junior. Quite cute leh...look a bit like Hyde...what happened to him?


Kohara Yuki. He was from Five too. Was good friends with Sho (check previous entry for Sho's pic) when they were juniors. Was the previous leader of Johnny's jr, before Takki, of i'm not wrong. He quit JE in 1999 to study. From what i last heard, he's trying to make a comeback to showbiz.

Was flipping through my magazines to look for hairstyle inspirations when i saw this Johnny's jr whom i found quite cute. He's called Maruyama Hiroshi and he's from this johnny's jr grp called B.A.D. (Stella likes this guy too, if i didn't rmb wrongly) Originally B.A.D. had 5 pple but in my mag there were only 3 left. And he's missing from the group in subsequent issues of Myojo.

So sad...He's gone...

I liked another guy - Nakama Junta - at first but i like Maruyama better after reading the interview. But Maruyama's disappeared!!!!!!!

Why??????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!


A cute pic of sho i found when i was searching for maruyama hiroshi's picture. He looks very yang2 guang1 here. Very nice!!

Haven't felt anything in ages. I gotta blog this down cos i finally had some feelings in a long while (since holiday started lah).

Today i hesitated for very long whether i should ask ming choo out. As in, i scared she won't want to go out cos she's always telling me she likes to stay at home. I tot very long...will she want to come out? And at such a short notice? (i rmb she say she dun like changes) Am i wasting her time? Grrrrr.......But in the end i still called her and i got to see her face (she agreed to go out). Yay! (And witness the miracle which is that my sis managed to put in her contact lenses in less than half and hr on her first try)

Stella u're in charged of getting black lipstick (if u do see one).

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